Where do I begin…I have been engaged for over a year and have yet to plan my wedding. Why, you ask? Because I can barely pick out an outfit to wear to work and I cannot fathom picking out color palates, table linens, and a venue. Oh, the agony!
Maybe it’s the pressure to create the “perfect” day. What if something goes wrong? Pink may be “in” today but lavender may possibly be the “must have” color tomorrow. Who wants a party that is not up to par? I mean you only get one chance to get it right…Right?
Oh, and the thought of that one guest that you know is tearing everything about your wedding apart piece by piece. “The food is cold.”, “The flowers aren’t full enough.”, “That dress makes her hips look big!” I know exactly who she is too…(I sat next to her at a recent wedding.) But I can’t “uninvite” her because…We’ll I guess I could scratch her name off the list.
And the daily updates from all of the wedding websites don’t help either. Every time I sign on a little screen pops up telling me how many days I have left until the “big day”. 275 days seem like plenty, but the days are quickly slipping by and no decisions have been made.
This may all seem petty, but as a perfectionist, this is a daily struggle! I never thought planning my own wedding would be so hard. I mean, I plan big events by day and I can execute a party with my eyes closed. But this…this is a whole different ball game. Am I a professional failure if I cannot plan my own event? (Don’t answer that…)
I need a magic wand, a fairy godmother, or a wedding planner…. Winning the lottery might help too. Do you know how much it is for a small wedding soirée? The basic package at any wedding venue is more than I make per year!
Yes, I know, weddings are a celebration of love and it doesn’t matter what other people think, who is there, or all of the above. Believe me, this pressure for perfection is beyond chiavari chairs and chandeliers….This is supposed to be the most important day of our lives and I don’t want to be the one to screw it up.
…to be continued